a reason for every season
We're only 2 months into 2021, and it has been a WHIRLWIND of a year already! Between promising work projects, Brook's and my 2 year wedding anniversary, moving into a house (still can't believe it!!), and now jury duty for the foreseeable month?!, it's been busy, to say the least. In the midst of all the excitement and chaos, I've been doing a lot of reflecting, especially about how we've gotten to where we are now. Last month in February, it was the year anniversary of quitting my serving job and pursuing self-employment full-time and it has been an exhilarating ride, but it was definitely daunting at the time to make the leap of faith.
I consider myself to be a pretty positive person, but I've talked about dealing with inadequacy and the need to be in control on our podcast, and how those feelings can often lend themselves to having doubts and being self-critical. I'm always looking for new ways to push myself and and work hard to become the best version of myself, so I often take on workloads that are very demanding. Throughout the years of trying to balance all of the various jobs I had, I definitely felt overwhelmed at times, especially with the jobs I wasn't the most passionate about. Sometimes I honestly just wanted to move on to the next phase of life! The payoff from all the work and time put in wasn't always immediate, so it made those feelings of inadequacy and criticism come to light more often than I'd like to admit. If I wasn't seeing the results I wanted now, when would it finally happen?
Looking back, I can see the value in those experiences and I'm so grateful to have gone through those times, even if they were full of stress and long hours. I know this can sound cheesy/cliche, but there is truly is a reason for every season we find ourselves in; there is always something to be learned from every phase of life even when our situations aren't the most ideal, if we take the time to appreciate where we are and to see how far we've come. I learned so much from that particular season of life, including how to best utilize my time, what I can and can't handle, and more than anything, what I want the rest of my life to look like.
I know it's easy to feel like you're stuck in a rut, and how frustrating it can be to feel like you aren't making any progress or moving forward with your goals. But I just want to encourage you that no matter where you're at in life, it's OKAY! It's so necessary and fun to plan for the future, but it's also important to take a step back and really immerse yourself in present, day-to-day life and find the joys in what can sometimes be the mundane. An amazing matcha, a soft blanket on a comfy couch, having more space, snuggles with Max, filming videos, reading uplifting comments and messages from such an amazing community- all of it adds up to make daily life so much fun and when I look back at this time, I want to remember every aspect of all of these wonderful moments.
The past couple of years have been full of surprises, life-changing decisions, and surpassed expectations. There have been a few bumps in the road along the way (looking at you, 2020...), but I'm so excited with where we're at. I'm soaking in every minute of this current chapter, and looking forward to all that is to come. Let me know what you've been learning in this time, I love that we as a community get to grow together!